Yesterday, I found myself having a very "hormonal" moment after reading some blogs of my friends, showing pictures of their kids playing in the snow. At first, I felt a little sad because on the days I'm at home with Jacob, I'm working, so we're prettymuch housebound. Then, the more I thought about my situation, I realized that I need to remind myself more often of my priorities...my precious little boy comes first. So I resolved to take him outside to play in the snow on Wednesday. I was totally geared up when I realized that I didn't even have snow boots for my almost 18 month old son. Needless to say, I'm pregnant, so I had a good cry about what a "terrible mother" I am for not having boots and decided I was going out that night to buy him some boots. Well, I did just that...and tomorrow, I'm taking at least a 30 minute break from my work to take him outside to play. I am so looking forward to it.
On another note, I really feel compelled to express how difficult it is to work from home and care for a child at the same time. A lot of people have told me how lucky I am and how they wish their situations allowed them to do that as well...and I just want to say...while I so appreciate being home with my son, I am constantly torn between what I should be doing at each given moment. When you are at work, your mind is on your work, when you are at home, your mind is on your home life (at least that is how it usually is). Working from home is much more difficult than many people realize, and while I know it is good for Jacob to have me there with him, and I love being with him, I also feel that I'm asking him to pay an unfair price when I can't give him the attention that he needs when he needs it, because that is what mommies there for. Just some thoughts I wanted to get off my chest...now I must get back to work :-)
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well- i just took my boys out for the 1st time this winter, so don't feel too bad! it's a lot of work bundling them up, and they can only stay out for a little bit! it is fun though- i bet jacob will love it! i agree with you about working at home. it is hard for me too, and i don't do nearly as much as you do. just the work i do for our business plus taking care of the kids can be very stressful, and i know what you mean about it being hard to split up your time between work and giving the kids attention. ok- now I'M done venting! LOL
Hey - you're a supermom! I can barely focus when I'm AT WORK. I couldn't imagine what it would be like to be at home with kids and trying to do both!
Ahhh... if it makes you feel better, Josiah's snow boots were a gift from someone else. I probably wouldn't have thought of buying him any either. :-) Keep up the good work. I know it is hard, but give yourself some credit. :-)
Welcome to blog world!
If it helps, we only spend a total of maybe 12 minutes outside.
Cuz it's cold.
And we're wimps in the snow.
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