Patience

I don't know about the rest of you, but patience is not one of my strong points, and it never has been. Ever since I can remember, circumstances have caused me to be anxious, worrisome and often times downright irritable, because of my lack of patience. And so many of those times, I knew the Lord was trying to teach me about the wonderful virtue of patience, but yet time and time again, I resist the lesson. Soooo, he continues to keep teaching me, and each time I have a choice. It's amazing when you think about how many chances he gives us (me) to learn this lesson. It just demonstrates HIS incredible patience with us filthy sinners who need him so badly.

Once again, I find myself struggling to be patient, but in the midst of it, I have to decide that I'm not going to let this get to me. I know in my brain that the Lord's timing is perfect, even though my emotions (and anatomy) sometimes try to convince me otherwise. I am waiting for a huge life change to happen at any moment, but in the meantime, I am going to try my best to relax, put the life change out of my mind, and spend some very important quality time with my little boy as this will be the last time it will just be Mommy and Jacob. Maybe that's why I've experienced this discomfort, causing me to stop working earlier than planned. Maybe that's why my mother has suddenly been given a large block of free time, so she can help me do some things around my home that I'm not physically able to do anymore as well as when the baby comes. It's amazing how so much has lined up just perfectly (it can't be a coincidence). The timing of it all is impecable. So, now we just continue to wait...